Wishes

After listening to almost a month of xmas carols with Evelyn on the car, I am abit "sick". So this morning after leaving her with my mother, I decided to tune in to Class 95. Glan Ong was talking about some volcano in Philipines, Myon or something like that. It sounded like Myan (the calendar which pre-tell the world will end in 2012).

I started to think and list out want are the 3 most wanted things I wanted to do before I die.

1) Another 3 weeks vacation in England (or United Kindom if to include Scotland and Ireland)

2) Start and own a business

3) Watch my little Evelyn grows up and start her own family

I have visited a few countries, and there are still many places which I have never been to. So its kind of strange why England is the first to pop into my mind. Probably, people wanted to revisit a place, for recollection of good memory before dying?

I wanted to own a business, and as to what kind of business I seriously have no idea and no plan. I do not even care if it failed.

My 3rd wish wish will never come true if the world is going to die by 2012. Perhaps, I should just wish and hope that nothing bad will happen in 2012.

~~ 1st day of schOOl ~~

Today is Evelyn's first day of school!

Here's another clip of us getting ready for the shot (coz the camera was in video mode)

I still remember her look when I carried her along the corridor towards the infant room. Very cute! Eyes big big, mouth open and head turning left and right. She was very excited!

We left for lunch and returned in the afternoon, to find her eyes filled with tears and red from crying. A caregiver was giving her her "ne ne". Poor baby. And then we hear poo poo poo.... She pooed! Instead of putting the bottle down and put her on her potty (this is what I always do at home), the caregiver continue to feed her. And finally, when she is not drinking anymore, she was brought to a rocker. Oh... I was shocked! Immediately I asked why wasnt her diaper changed since she pooed? And the answer was... oh we only check every 3hr-ly! And I asked when was the last diaper change. OMG.. she has to sit in her shit for another one and half hour... my poor ah B.....

When we returned to pick her up at night, she was lying on another rocker. This time she was surrounded by babies and kids, all getting ready waiting for their parents to pick them up.

Once home, she drank hungrily. And after a quick bath, she slept (like a real baby)! Occassionally, I can hear her laughter! Thanks god she has no problem sleeping tonight. Today must have been a real tiring day for her!

There is another thing to add... After we left her at sunflowerbaby house, home is really werid without her. The cot is empty, the house "feels" empty (even though there are 2 big adults at home). And I cant wait going back to check on her. I was telling daddy, having baby is like picking up smoking. Before you pick up the habit, you can do without it no problem and still live a happy life. But once you are into smoking, your life changed. You get addicted. I dont mean to encourage smoking, but today every minutes when we are apart my mind kept going back to Evelyn in school. I never expect that having a baby is so "addictive".....

Ready to fly!

Finally Evelyn has her own passport today! And we are ready to fly.

Evelyn, are you ready for it? hmmm we will see...

See that pair of "fatty" legs? Yes yes its Evelyn taking her nap.

oo.. oo... arh arhh

Tonight Evelyn keeps bubbling and cooing, refusing to sleep. However, once i turned the camera ON, she stopped talking! Maybe she is shy!



Saw that clear path on her head? Yes, she is shedding hair. Guess we made a right decision to shaved her, or else she will be looking "sick" with her hair getting thinner everyday.

And btw, mummy is shedding hair too, yet she cant shave her hair or else she will look like.... hmmm a nun?.. an alien?

Heard the woman's voice in the backgroud? Its not me talking. Its our indian neighbour "shouting" with her baby! Sigh... Thanks god, Evelyn is going to school. Or else, in future i got to scream at her before she can hear me.

Another clip (shorter).. Something interesting towards the end!

Can I sleep here?

So are there any interesting behavior of my princess? Definitely!

When Evelyn is tired (but not overly tired), once you put her on the bed, she will go into a "starfish" position. Leaving her alone, she will fall asleep herself (but sleep duration is variable la). Occassionally, if she cant fall asleep alone, she will make some noise. Usually, we will just pat her softly on her pillow. When all else failed, there is one thing that works -- MILK!

Will ICA rejects these photos?

We are going for plane ride!
But before we get too excited, let us try to solve our first headache...

PASSPORT PHOTOS

Jie Jie Christine: Doesnt this look familar? YES, this is the bear top you got for Evelyn. Will post the full body "candid' shots later. Now we need to be serious..

December 21, 2012 Apocalypse

I was thinking of uploading some pics of Evelyn after we shaved her hair. But then I came across this topic...

Since the day I saw Evelyn through the ultrasound in gynae's clinic, I have started to wonder what she will be like. Will she be healthy? Smart? Pretty? I would think and imagine the day when I will hold her hand and walk her to the school, when she will go holiday with us, when she will start making friends and how her boyfriend will look like, and when she will start her own family, and when we will have big family outing ......

If 2012 Apocalypse is true, then its very cruel. Its not so much of the fear of dying or disappearing from the world (since most or all of the living things on earth might perish anyway), its the fear of separation that I wouldnt have a chance to grow with Evelyn. This thought really scares me. Isnt this all parent's wish to be with their child?

Also, if disaster really strike, this blog will be gone too. All the bits and pieces which I've been trying to keep and save for Evelyn will be wiped out. Feeling really down now.... and will she be safe? How do I keep her safe and the family together?

What time is it?.. Its Gym Time!

Recently, we noticed Evelyn likes to stick her hand out straight (like the superman). She will do this almost all the time when she is awake, and she doesnt feel tired at all!

So, during a trip to kiddy palace, we saw and got this turtle gym for her. And she seem to really enjoy her gym session, sticking out all her fours!

Its Poo Poo time ~~

Yes Evelyn has started on the potty lesson. So far so good. At least I am comfortable to say that, she is able to recognise sit on potty means poo poo! She always poo within 5mins after sitting on the potty. Probably, its easier to poo due to her feeding on breastmilk.

I hope when we send her to infant care, the teacher will continue to bring her to her potty or toilet during her poo poo time.

And photos? No photos haha... *censored*...

Its So HOT !

Nowadays, the weather is getting really unbearable.. its so hot and humid! Thanks to the effect of global warming...

But this doesnt stop Evelyn's hair from growing. And its growing VERY WELL. I wouldnt say its "long", coz "Tall" is a much better word to describe her hair, coz its still sticking out! She spends most of her time lying down, probably gravity has forgotten about her hair.

Believe me, Evelyn's hair can smell really bad on a hot afternoon. She needs a hair cut soon! And, here are some last pictures with mummy and daddy before the haircut, for memory of her "womb" hair.

In Memorance of our 7.5 yr old friend, Tututu 2002~2009

It is with great sadness that Tututu has passed away last saturday morning. Tututu has been with us for around 7 great years. I hope the time with us is a happy one.

We bought him from a pet shop at marine parade and he left us at a vet clinic in choa chu kang.

Tututu: You will always be in our memory...

Hello Pinky!

After nearly a week of practice, Ting Ting can finally lift up her head to more than 45 deg! Glad that I have the camera nearby.

Ting: Hello Pinky!
Rabbit: Hey you can crawl?

(To listen to the rest their conversation, watch the video clip below)

Ting Ting's crawling lesson

I think she is pretty amazing.
After 2 days of lesson, today she is able to lift her head up for at least... 1min?

A new "boy" friend

Evelyn has a new friend, who is quite cute ...

See that red patch near her left eye? Its not a love bite from the new boyfriend, but from mosquitoes! Its actually made up of 3 small bites, and there is another one on her left arm (yesterday she slept lying on her right side).

There has been a flood of mosquitoes in our house, and outside our house. I have called NEA, hope they will do something soon, and will not throw my request aside because we are staying in an opposition party's constituent. *pray hard*

Smiling baby

Ting Ting seldom smile, but when she smile, it really melt my heart!

In her sleep.

After a feed...

Playing with me!

Separation anxiety....

Starting to feel this separation anxiety.

I will be returning to office on coming Monday, to help out in an audit. But then I am so loss touch with work after being away for 2 months, so I am also not sure what kind of help I can offer.

Though this is just for a few days (in fact - its a few half days), I am still feeling kind of stress and .. hmmm.. cant describe. I guess I am getting comfortable staying at home with Evelyn, happily changing her diaper and feeding her =)

Haven't been blogging for sometime as busy seeing her needs, will post her other pics on some other days. Just this set first.

Evelyn with Tortoise

Seem that Evelyn doesn't like Tortoise!

A Note from Evelyn

Dear Uncles & Aunties,

Thank you for spending a memorable Valentine Day with me. I was overwhelm by all the gifts that you have showered me. Sorry for not been a good host as you know babies like me tend to sleep, poo, cry & drink milk a lot. I enjoy some of the cuddle from you despite soaking in plenty of sweat. Hope to meet up soon for my very 1st birthday!

Cheers, Evelyn

Here are some gift received by our little Evelyn.....And........ lots of Ang Baossss!

A Valentine's Day Invite

We are having baby shower for Evelyn on 14-Feb. Co-incidently, it is also Valentine Day! But, no flower is required as it is likely that she will just eat up all the petal =)

Its feeding time again!

But this time Evelyn feeds from bottle!
What is mummy trying to do to me!??! Help!!!Why no one come to my help? Totally shacked out, can I go back to bed now?

A new sleeping style

Kelvin rushed of bedroom asking "Why is our Ting Ting sleeping like that?!?!" He sounded horrified. So I quickly went in to take a look.. This is what i saw..

24-hr cow ... Moooo....

Feeding... Feeding.. and Feeding! 24-hr round the clock, everyday! On-demand feeding, comfort feeding, feeding to increase volume...

Nothing has prepared my mindset in this area! Not from the books I read, not from the antenatal classes we attended, and definitely not from friends. In books, I used to see pictures of breastfeeding mother and baby looking contented, peaceful, and lovely. That has been so misleading, at least to me! The reality is.. it is a very tiring task, and you need to have great perseverance to endure so that you can continue. During this period, I think encouragement and help from people around you is very important.

However, there are still people around me, who will give negative remarks, eg milk supply is low - baby do not have enough, baby is hard to take care (because she is always crying), give her a "dummy" i.e. pacifier. So who is this people? Its my mother! Was really disappointed in her. In hospital, she said that, at home she said that. Everynow and then.. How can I trust her to look after my baby in future? Why cant she stop giving feedback if whatever she has to say is so negative? And if you ever try to stop her from talking, she will speak even louder, and this usually woke Evelyn who has just fallen asleep! And the whole nightmare will start all over again.

To keep myself going, I always psyco myself to think that 1-hr of breast feeding would be equivalent to 10g fat lost! And to see Evelyn's pleasing smile after every feeding is the greatest reward for me

*will post her photo later when I have uploaded from camera*

Today, we went for our first post-natal checkup, all by ourselves (without confinement aunti).

The visit to gynae is smooth and swift. Though there is a queue waiting to see Dr Wong, we were given priority as we have a newborn baby with us. However, we do need to pay $85 for the visit as this post-natal checkup is not part of the package that we had signed up with the clinic.

But the appointment with Evelyn's paediatrian Dr Ong's was very upsetting. Firstly, the clinic was very crowded when we reached. The nurse has reassured us that priority will be given to newborns, and told us to wait in the nursing room. After half an hour, its still not our turn. We asked the nurse, and her response was "What? Havent you see the doctor yet?" Just to be safe, we decided to wait in the main waiting area, so that we will not be forgotten again.

As Evelyn has jaundice, she needed a blood test to determine the level of bilirubin. We were told that result will be available soon after lunch. If the result exceeded an index of 14, she would need to be admitted for treatment. At 3.30pm, there is still nothing from the clinic. Before we left TMC (after seeing gynae), I called the clinic and was shocked when they said the blood sample has just been send to the lab, and result will only be out in another hour!

So, we only received call from clinic after we reached home. The bilirubin index for Evelyn is 15.2, and she need to be admitted. We frecked out on the thought that we need to travel back to TMC. It had been really tiring to travel half of Singapore to Novena and Thomson.

Anyway, after much thought, we decided to checkout the treatment proceduce and room-in pricing with KKH. At KKH A&E, Evelyn was put through another blood test for bilirubin level. It was heart-wrenching to hear her cry. Surprisingly, result was out within 15mins, and we were told that her bilirubin level is not high enough to justify for her admission in KKH. After much clarification, we learnt that actually different hospitals have different admission criteria for jaundice treatment. So, we were sent home and told to observe her for a few more days. The doctor advised us that we should have blood test done at polyclinic before coming to hospital.

Anyway, thanks to god we can go home, and need to be hospitalized. We were really dead tired traveling to and fro hospitals, and mentally-stress up with Evelyn's condition.

my name is ^_^ ~~

Finally, we've got a name for baby!
This is after we consulted a master and paid $198.

Ong Sze Ting Evelyn 王詩婷

Hopefully, her name will help to improve her life and supplement what she lack!

A new helper @ home ~~ hurray ~~

Finally, I get some time to surf! Our new confinement lady arrived last night. Ops, I can't remember what's her name! Anyway, I will just refer her as aunti till I can recall her name *paiseh to ask*

The neighbour confinement aunti left us on new year eve. She walked off with a dark face, saying that we have "shouted" at her. This all happened after I told her I need her help to tidy up my room (I haven't unpack my bags and gifts from friends since I returned from hospital), and mum told her those baby's clothes need re-washing as they still showing signs of detergent residues. Maybe I shall talk a little more about this neighbour.

After I mentioned that i will be doing full time breast feeding, she said she will not stayed in house with us. Having no experience with confinement, and not sure what to expect, we agreed to let her return home at night.

On the second day, she came to our house very late. I was pretty upset, since I have told her I need her help to "sun bath" baby @ around 8 to 9 (baby has jaundice). Yet she didnt appear till after 9. And she seem to rush through things which she need to do (ie. wash our clothes, bath baby, cook my lunch). And as expected, she left for home right after she cooked my lunch. While I was having lunch, baby cried, and I cant find anyone to help me other than my dad! It was really hectic!
Before she left, I've told her I am having massage @ around 3, so she need to come back in case baby need some attention. Yet she was no where in sign till dad went downstair to look for her. Similarly, after cooking my dinner, she went home by 5.30 and no where in sign till the next day (which is the new year eve - the day she left us). And BTW, the food she cooked is really tasteless.

Although her service is lousy, we thought we might as well tolerate till after CYN, but we didnt expect her to leave us on CYN eve.

The new aunti is directly an opposite of this neighbour. She is sensitive to my need, has initiative to tidy my room and the whole house without you tell her what she need to do, and most importantly she can interact with baby. (When the previous aunti tried to bath baby, baby was crying like there is no tomorrow). For such a pro service, we are definitely paying for a much higher price of $2700, and considering this is also last minute request. Anyway, today is just the second day we are having her around, so let's hope the standard will stay.

Another milestone reached!

Baby's umbilical cord stump has dropped off today. I was shocked when I saw it as I only expect it to be detacted a few days later. Prior to that, I was feeding her, and then noticed the detached cord when doing diaper change. Anyway, the fact is it has fallen off!

Picture? The blurred mum has lost it before she got a chance to picture of the stump.

*Post -natal life without confinement lady's help is very hectic*

Day 3: Hungry baby @ 3.30am

03:30: Nurse came in with baby saying that baby is hungry. Wasn't it less than 2 hr that we had the previous feed? While getting myself ready, I couldnt help thinking and feeling abit worried that I havnt really start giving her any milk (she was on colostrum all along).

And then I saw it, a small whitish dot. Is that MILK? With baby on my left arm, I tried to turn on the light using my other hand, but not successful. Took another look at that "dot", it was still whitish! Couldnt be wrong.

Finally, reached 4.15am. I broke the suction, and let her lie on my lap. She looks satisfied with her eyes closed! I pressed the call bell immediately, for the nurse to bring her back to the nursury, as my bladder is bursting!

Now slipping through my cup of milo after the toilet break, phew..

Day 2: Family photo

Let's take a pics with mummy first!

Mummy, Baby and Daddy

**Hello Baby** 20-Jan-2009 @ 23:43

Finally, we get to see each other!
And you looked so much like your daddy...